Maybe take a break?

Hi all,

Di asked if i wanted to take a break from IVF for a month or two?

I hadn't even thought about it before...however.....5 days later i'm seriously considering it...
Of course we're both gonna have a good talk about it over the weekend...I just need to sort it out here for a while....
It's hard to let myself think about it....you know once you're on the role of going for it....
Mind you it's been 3 and half years for us and we've had a month off here and there...

I guess i feel a bit unsure...i never thought of having a break....we have two embryos left...I'm starting to panic a little...i really don't want to go thru a stim cycle again....I would tho...but anyway....
We have to pack and move house by the end of August and it seems that having a break might be good....
The thought of going for this next cycle does feel a bit much...it's hard work....

I think i'm answering myself as i write...
The fact i'm talking about a break indicates it might be necessary...

I need to see the bigger picture too...that our wellbeing is important....and a month or two break may be just what we need.....we can relax and house hunt and move and yes i'm erring towards a break....
It's amazing how hard on myself i can be in light of how much we've gone thru...i really need to give myself a break...ha ha
In my head i'm saying " you should keep going no matter what" bla bla "time is running out" bla blah blah....
So now i tell that part to fuck off and let me be.....

Hope everyone is travelling well xx

Bummer!

Hi All,
Got my period on the weekend....bummer!
After shedding the neccessary tears and feeling like a complete zombie in pain...i rested....watched dvds.....and am ok....feeling quite tired......
Will keep on going tho'.....
We have two embryos left so hopefully it happens soon....
we are still house hunting which is a great distraction....am still doing my best to stay relaxed and i can feel the stress rising a bit which is to be expected when your whole world is changing....
We've been renting our house for 5 years...planted trees in the yard and really nested there....
It's a bit hard the feeling of unknown and being uprooted...but we still plan to buy a place....a villa/unit....it's all really overwhelming at times but if i just keep focused and let the shitty moments go it's exciting too...
How bizarre life is at times...learning to just' be' in the unkown of it all is the most challenging thing for me.

Making way for new things....

Hi All,
I'm still waiting to ovulate....i reckon tomorrow or the next day....
my cycles seem to have lengthened since my stim cycle...this is now our third go...
I still feel quite relaxed about it all....which is great...
i've actually been feeling great! just appreciating all the good things in my life and it's been helpful....I'm really enjoying teaching my singing course...we're up to week 3...I love it...i need to change my career towards doing more of what i love!!!

Yesterday we got a letter of notice to vacate our home....
We have 60 days to find a new house....
We've been living there for 5 years....
i'm a little spun out and am contiually reminding myself to look at the positives....Time for a change.....making way for new things...cleaning out the old.....etc...it's mostly working....
I'm an old stresser from way back but this time i refuse to buy into it!!!
The challenge is on...(with myself)
We are going to find a beautiful house to live in......and that's it!!!
I want to stay relaxed as possible for our baby making ventures.....so let's see how it goes...
i may fumble and fall but i'm ok with that...I'll get back up again and keep thinking positive.....